Burn my soul

An apology in words not easily read,
With these emotions swirling in my head.
I told you once, I've told you twice,
I'll hold you close this very night.

So pull the trigger, take my down,
Bury my breath underground.
I've made a mistake, I've made another,
And I've gone too far, my dear brother.
Feel the pain crack my skull,
Nothing but an empty hull.
I think I've done way too much,
So suicide, and such and such.

For once in my life an angel I see,
And a gift it gave unto me.
Now I misuse and abuse with all disregard,
And let my soul return to cold and hard.

Break my body and shroud my mind,
And leave me with what was left behind.
I deserve a future told in past,
Something through which I'll never last.

If I'd gone to far, I'd never know,
Becuase your pain, you'll never show.
So strong in will, so unbeknownst,
Whatever relieves the tensioned host.

A pain so sweet, in bitter pain,
Rest its blood, my head's lain.
Too much for me to withstand,
Pull me close, hold my hand.

Break my body and shroud my mind,
And leave me with what was left behind.
I deserve a future told in past,
Something through which I'll never last.

If my mistake is caring too much,
Then I'll destroy you with my touch.
Can you blame me for feeling love,
To keep them from the gods above?

If I say my soul and it affends,
I mean not thewhat and when.
So if you feel I say the wrongs,
Burn my soul, douse these tongs.

Break my body and shroud my mind,
And leave me with what was left behind.
I deserve a future told in past,
Something through which I'll never last.

I've earned my place with all due gifts,
Yet the burden, I still lift.
I've come to terms, if that be named,
I'll watch us rot, selves be blamed.

So if my crime is caring too long,
Then I hope I'm only so strong.
Because I shall commit again and again,
Until you shame me with your kin.

One last sentiment in these lines,
When the thought crosses your mind.
Remember these, my dear nearby,
In the end, I'm by your side.